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Location: Rochester, Minnesota, United States

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Take a Deep Breath And...

Yes.
No.
Yes.
No.
Maybe.
Not ready.
They know already.
Not all of them.
It's not that good.
It doesn't matter.
There are some people I don't want to see.
There are some people you do.
Good Smeagol.
I just don't know if I can do it.
You can, I know you can.
But I just don't need any more pressure than I already have right now.
Diamonds are coal made good under pressure.
You read that in Reader's Digest.
Maybe. What's it to ya?
*sigh*
Are you gonna do it or what?
I'm scared.
Of what?
Judgement.
Get over it.
Rejection.
You were a professional actress for cryin' out loud. GET OVER IT!!!!
You think I should?
Aren't you out here in the ether to connect with people?
Yeah, but...
Don't you want to share with others?
Sure, but...
Didn't you promise?
Yes, but...
Shut up and do it. It'll be okay.
You think?
I do.
What if you're wrong?
Then I'm wrong. The world will keep on turning, the sun will rise and set, you family will still love you. You're not that important. Do it.
Okay.

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Speaking of Friends...

I just came from the Block Island Ecumenical Concert. Geez, I miss directing them. And I sure would have liked to have had all the women singing that were in the choir tonight. The turnout was decent, although I would have liked to have seen the place packed on a Saturday night with nothing good on TV. (390 channels and STILL nothin' to watch!)

One of the big reasons I had to go to the concert was that my friends, the Lambs (Lamb's Package Service - excellent people, they're in the phone book) were playing tonight in the Block Island Bluegrass Band. Now, a few folks are aware that Diane is a very talented classical guitarist. Let me tell you, folks, she ain't just a pretty face. (But what a pretty face. Talk about your truly beautiful women inside and out. She also would have made a fantastic Southern Woman - very steel magnolia-ish) What I didn't know is how talented Dave is. I vaguely remember Diane telling me that Dave had played drums or something percussiony in high school. And I don't think I'm giving away any state secrets to say that it might have been more than just a couple of years ago. But, to his credit, Dave decided with all the music going on at his house he ought to be a part of it. His wife found a great deal on a standup bass and the next thing I know I'm listening to him play it tonight and he kicked...butt! Really great way to go Diane, Dave and Ken! And Alison, too. That little girl (although she's a young woman now, I should watch what I say) is going places. And if she's not it's only because that's what she's chosen.

Diane is one of those friends that you don't see as often as you'd like to, but when you do you know that it's okay because you're having a fantastic time while you're there. She's also the kind of person I wanted to be, but got off track. In some ways, not all. She's gorgeous, obviously. But she also takes time to take care of herself. Not just physically, but spiritually and psychologically also. D is living the life that makes her happy and fulfilled. Go to, baby! But people tend to mistake D for nothing more than a pretty social butterfly. Like I said, she'd make a great Southern gal. This woman has got brains. A lot of them. And she uses them. And I applaud everything she's worked for and achieved.

A lot of times out here you hear people complain about all the "rich people" that have...well, basically ruined everything. I, myself, am guilty of sweeping generalizations that some of the ruder, less socially adaptive wealthy folks merit. But there's lots of folks here who have worked for their money and put it to good use living here and who shouldn't be penalized or lumped in with the "bad apples" just because they've used the resources God gave them and made good. Some of the folks that move out here integrate, attend Church, join the rescue squad, give money to all the causes that the rest of us ask them to...you know, are members of the community.

But I digress...I attended the concert. I recognized a lot of people there. There were quite a few there I swear I've never seen before in my life. There's no real point in my narrative. Some of the random thoughts in my head were: where are all the people who complain that there's very little non-alcoholic activities on BI? Where are all the financial supporters listed in the program? Where oh where can my little dog be? Is there any chance I can get Luis to wear a cowboy hat and spurs after hearing him sing Country Gospel? (or am I going to hell for picturing Luis in a cowboy hat and spurs while standing in a church?) Oh, geez, there I go digressing again. You know what? I'm gonna take my sore back, my pinched nerve and my chocolate milk and snuggle under the covers in my ripped sweatshirt and flannel jammies. I'll fall asleep to City Confidential and dream of...dare I go there?...cowboy hats and spurs and just when the dream gets good - well, the baby will cry and I'll go pat his back and it'll be just in time so I don't have to feel guilty whatsoever.

Sorry, Sam, it's nowhere near my husband telling me that I'm the only woman he'd share his farts with.

Friday, May 20, 2005

Wanted

WANTED: Best Friend and Confidante: Unique individual seeks same. Qualified applicants should meet the following criteria:
-Must genuinely like me and at least some of my characteristics.
-Must make me laugh.
-Must get my jokes - and like them.
- Must be level-headed, down to earth, have common sense and not come from a seriously dysfunctional family or be the cause of a seriously dysfunctional family.
- Must be musically or theatrically inclined, preferrably onstage but techies okay.
-Must be willing to audition for both musicals and plays with me, but never compete for the same parts. Also must admit that there will never be a King to rival my Anna.
-Must love coffee and know how to brew same.
-Should be willing to walk every so often - preferrably in the morning when the light is easy, the smells are glorious and the noise level makes it easy for heartfelt conversations.
-Should take my side at all times.
-Must be willing to tell me when I'm wrong (use for this skill is rare).
-Must glare at my husband behind his back because he's not good enough for me and be sweet to his face because he's my husband.
-Expects me to do the same.
-Must understand that I cannot afford to do anything, go anywhere, buy anything or visit at any time if I cannot bring my baby.
-Needs an extensive vocabulary - or at least the ability to divine word meanings.
-If not highly intelligent, then at least highly clever.
-Needs very little excuse to dress in any kind of costume.
-Needs very little excuse to throw party to dress in any kind of costume.
-Needs no excuse at all to have party for the sheer sake of food.
-Must be able to identify the musicals in which the following characters appear: Lena Lamont, Prince Dauntless, Tessie Tura, Peep Bo, Motel Kamzoil.
-Must be able to identify the movie the following quotes are from: "Judge me by my size, do you not?" "Well...you were dead." "So long, thanks for all the fish." "I should have dumped you back in Pittsburgh." "Quid pro quo, Doctor."
-Knows what's important in life.
-Also knows that money really, really helps.
-Cannot be friends with my husband.
-Is a person of character, values and integrity and takes pride in trying to be a good person.
-Believes in a higher power and a greater good.
-Knows more about something (car repair, baking, publishing, common household stains and their removal) than I do and can fix the things I can't.
-Cannot be an emotional terrorist.
-Is positive, upbeat and a lifelong member of the optimist's club - negativism is catching and I'm already trying to shake a bad case I caught off of someone else.
-Cannot be skinnier than a size 10 or there cannot be any real (cheesecake filled) future for us.
-Did I mention: knows what's important?
-Must be nice to children, animals, older persons and grumpy, rude people who don't deserve it.
-Must know why it's important to be nice to people who don't really deserve it.
-Must know how to hold one's ground without going on the offensive.
-Prejudice of any kind will not be tolerated!

If you are qualified for this position, I'm pretty sure you're already somebody's best friend - or there's a darn good reason you're not and I probably forgot to mention it (mental illness, jail time, etc.) in my list.

Friendship is a treasure. But best friends...well...there's no way to calculate the immense worth of a true (real and good) best friend. Here's to all the best friends...and those who have one because they are one.


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